the subconscious mind kills. even when you sleep, you don't get rest. even when you're so resolute to not think about it, you always do in the end, subconsciously. but i guess setting yourself not to think, is already thinking itself. so basically, your mind has no rest and you have no rest.
i wish i could learn more about dreams, and interpret it better. maybe i could use the time when i stop working to improve myself more productively. eg read a whole intriguing book at borders the whole day. (i haven't done that for a long long time) i always believed that whatever you dream, is exactly the opposite of what's going to happen in reality. cos so far that's mostly what happens. nothing i dream ever comes true. im such an amateur at dreams. i want to meet a real-life psychic.
sorry i just woke up so im drowsy and random.